11.04.2005

| Must be nice (c) Lyfe |

I'm sad today. Again. Perpetually.

It would be nice to leave this place right now. Go to Tibet and chill with the monks or something.

It would be nice to have someone listen to me. Sincerely. Attentively. For like 5 minutes straight.

It would be nice if I trusted people enough to share things with them. Stop being so secretive. And evasive. And elusive. (I'm sorry.)

It would be nice to be appreciated.

It would be nice to be honored.

It would be nice if Americans spelled honored with a "u".

It would be nice to witness the eradication of fake thugs, worldwide.

It would be nice to stop putting labels on people. On faiths. On beliefs. On God.

It would be nice if I wasn't such a hypocrite.

It would be nice to stop loving everyone and everything so hard.

It would be nice to not be so passionate about everyone and everything.

It would be nice to have someone hold my hand for a day.

It would be nice to have a hug that lasted all day.

It would be nice to stop mourning him. And him. And him. And him. And him. Hmm, and him too.

It would be nice to fall asleep at night without sleeping pills.

It would be nice if my teeth didn't hurt all day cuz I was biting down on them all night.

It would be nice to not stress myself so much.

It would be nice if I went to class everyday that I have class.

It would be nice if I was sexy sexier.

It would be nice if everyone had keen fashion sense.

It would be nice if I'd stop apologizing for who I am, will be.

It would be nice if I had what I needed. Usually you can buy wants.

It would be nice not to sleep in an empty bed anymore.

It would be nice if I met The Him(TM) today.

It would be nice if I knew whether or not The Him(TM) existed.

It would be nice if I could kick his a** for taking so long to show up.

It would be nice if I could be a nomad. Or a painter. Or a streetside poet.

It would be nice if I stopped caring what people thought or think about me.

It would be nice to stop regretting things that can't change. Or missed chances, opportunities and make-it-rights.

It would be nice if my birthday wasn't in 3 weeks.

It would be nice if I ended this 'it would be nice' series, right now.

Au revoir.

Shalom(?), chaverim.


Hebrew Word of the Day:

none.

Current e-Motions: meh.
Today's Riddims: I didn't even listen to music today.

3 comments:

Lesley said...

*shakes head*

We are on the same page today my dear.

Sometimes... seems like everything is wrong.

Guess its one of those days.

Only good thing about those days... there's usually a really kick ass one following it.

jasdye said...

i'm probably not the best person to say this at this moment (sorry, sweetie),

but we love-a yooo.

and,
it would be nice if you would recognize what a great person you are and how much you can and do offer to those who come in contact with you.

it would be nice if we could all trust in the Lord with all our heart(s) and lean not unto our own understanding(s), because that's how we get into these emotionally melee's in the first place.

sis,
i'm praying for you. and me (i'm havin' it a bit hard too.)

Todd said...

I feel ya' C. I've been really down today. The girl I mentioned in my blog? Well there is no reason to worry about that now... that is over. I've never really had a relationship that amounted to much before. I doubt I ever will. That is for my own blog though.

There is no reason to get down now is there? I would give you that hug, and sit and listen, and hold your hand, but Omaha to Toronto is about a 17-18 hour drive! :)

God Bless Sister!
Toddo